Fat and Sassy

my views on being larger than life.

what does this remind you of? January 31, 2010

Filed under: Biggest Loser,reality tv — erylin @ 12:24 pm
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so yea i watch reality tv…so what.  I love it….the anthropoligst in me wants to pay for the premium 24 access to watch the big brother news feed (i did that the 2nd year they were on)  anyhoo gotta rant on this……

Anybody watch the biggest loser (i refuse to dignify it with a link) and get reminded of the Running Man by Steven King? “the Games Federation, a government-mandated television station that runs violent game shows. In one game, Treadmill to Bucks, a contestant with a heart or respiratory condition runs on a treadmill earning prize money for the duration of their run, often dying in the process.” (from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Running_Man)  huh…sort of sounds like the biggest loser to me, just framed every so slightly differently.   At least on treadmill to bucks the contestants get paid, even if they don’t lose the most weight.  

 what the hell has the world come to….I am just waiting for shows like the running man  to start.  and hell I hate to say it I would watch. i watch solitary for its eerie creepy doing-a-phychological-test-for-50k craziness so i can see its appeal. (and if you havent seen solitary check it out on Fox reality or http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solitary_(TV_series  also apparently the network is going of the air in march 2010 so catch it if you can)


High-tech sensors help people stay true to diet, exercise plans (quick link) January 30, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — erylin @ 10:16 pm

OMFG  gattica anyone?  does this not scare anyone else? 

The experimental devices are designed to keep track of how many minutes they work out, how much food they consume and even whether they are at a fast-food joint when they should be in the park. The goal is to cut down on self-reported answers that often cover up what’s really happening.

 I recently found THIS article (complete with the obligatory headless fatty picture….this time with a monitor) http://www.usatoday.com/news/health/weightloss/2010-01-07-obesity-monitors_N.htm

it’s a freaking monitor.  nanny state anyone?  I am SO mad right now I am seeing red.   SO  they are gonna make me wear a monitor and tell me what I should be eating?   how much I should be moving?  whats next?  what happens when I DONT lose weight?  I wont, trust me…on diets if anything I UNDER eat and OVER exercise, not the other way around asshat.  AND I STILL DONT LOSE WIEGHT.  “Traditional weight-loss interventions rely mainly on people’s memory of what they ate for dinner and how many minutes they worked out. But researchers have long known that method can be unreliable since people often forget details or lie.”  Right blame the fatty…because if we don’t lose the weight we MUST be lying.   we HAVE to be eating bon bons.  And watching tv.  I wonder if the monitor is waterproof so I can swim…or does that not count?  (since some of the protoypes monitor sweat levels to determine activity levels) do i have to wear a freaking heart rate monitor while i blow out my bad knees running on a treadmill because OMFG YOUR ARE FAT YOU WILL DIEEEEEEEEEEE.

Anybody else reminded of gattica, with the rows of perfect clones running in synchronization, wearing heart rate monitors…  /shudder


Here’s why you should read who funds studies.

So i was looking for new weight loss news to post and all i found were these 2 papers:

http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/177589.php  is a post about how alli will lower abdominal fat….guess who funded it?  guess who WROTE the article and gave it to yahoo and other “news journals?”  Source: Debbie Bolding  for GlaxoSmithKline Consumer Healthcare.  In the study the difference between the “control” group and the alli group was “5.96 kg versus 3.91 kg, respectively”  so what?  such a HUGE loss of around 6 or 4 kg.   Some proven weight loss….and that was at the 6 month mark….did they keep it off?  what were the 12 month stats like?   Furthermore it is nothing but a badly written ad for alli in the first place….fail…trhats not “weight loss news”  thats just a badly written advertismnet….go sell it to readers digest im done with it.

 another good example of the “follow the money” idea for reading so called weight loss news is THIS gem right here.  http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/177654.php.  this article doesn’t even give statistical data, it just gives the same old generalities as usual.  “There are risks associated with barbaric surgery, as there are with any surgical procedure, but the risks associated with the procedure may pale in comparison to the health complications that can be caused by obesity,” said Christopher Still, D.O., director of the Geisinger Center for Nutrition and Weight Management.”   LMAO anyone want to care to guess what the geisinger company does?   It’s an insurance group, runs nursing homes, and bariatric weight loss centers in PA. 

Think about it people, “weight loss has become a year-round preoccupation–and a source of profit for a $40 billion industry.” (from http://health.usnews.com/usnews/health/articles/030616/16profit.htm)  its in the industries best interests to keep you coming back for more…..to advertise in sneaky ways (they wouldn’t have to put results not typical in ads if there’s wasnt a LAW about it somewhere, think about it people!)   Theres more money in us hating ourselves and dieting for our the rest of their lives, buying their products every day, than us enjoying life, and eating well.    40 billion dollar industry…..


a voice in recovery January 28, 2010

As you probably know by now, i am a recovering bulimic, and am always looking for ways to support others in the recovery process, as well as looking for advice and insight on my own recovery.  I follow weightless (http://blogs.psychcentral.com/weightless/2010/01/qa-on-eating-disorder-recovery-with-kendra-a-voice-in-recovery-part-2/) which features thoughtful interviews with people in the recovery process.    


A problem that eating disorders have in the media is their portrayal.   It, like dieting, is often seen as a “willpower”  issue, when it’s so much more than that (much like dieting)   “I do worry more about trash media articles, because often the articles sound cliché, and make it sound like eating disorders are a willpower issue and not a complicated biological, chemical, cultural, environmental disorder.”   Also, everyone sees the wasting waif that is the face of anorexia….but put me in a line up and you wouldn’t be able to go “HER…thats the bulimic”   That is one of the MANY pitfalls of judging a person by their weight.   Tell me to “lose weight fatty”  and not so long ago it would throw me into a crying tailspin where I would purge everything I ate for 3 months.   Hell I have even had relatives tell me to just be bulimic for 3 months so you lose 30 lbs so you can get out there and date after my husband left me (thanks insensitive bitch!)   If I am skinny and its after 1994, it’s NOT because of a successful diet….its because I throw up.  ITs when I get “fat” again that I am healthy, not living in a hell with my worth being defined as a number at the convergence of calories in, exercise, willpower, and hatred.. 

This particular article is with Kendra, the head of A voice of Recovery on facebook (http://www.facebook.com/AVoiceinRecovery) and she had some awesome things to say about ed, recovery and advocacy.  First, she lashes out at the diet industry, which is the root of poor body image in oh so many women. ” I worry that because dieting is running rampant in this country by a multi-billion dollar industry, that parents will see dieting as a girl’s “right of passage.” I worry people will start dieting and end up with eating disorders. I believe the diet industry is a very damaging, powerful industry.”  that is why diet ads, ESPICALLY to those in recovery can be so toxic….it’s really hard to ignore all the “lose weight fatty or no one will love you” messages in the media…or worse yet “lose weight fatty or your gonna DIIIEEEEEEEE” (i think i want a t-shirt with that on it, as a caption for a picture of receipts for diet food) that is the new special hell in the media for ed folks.   Because EVERY diet becomes restriction, and for those with and ed, this can mean relapse.

She also talks about the lack of information for those RECOVERED….you hear all these stories about the bravery of women going into ED treatment, but you don’t see the reality out the other side…..IT can feel hopelessly long, and hard, and damn near impossible.   The media, ESPICALLY for bulimia, doesn’t really talk about the long term effects….for me, my ED is becoming VERY real as my teeth fall out one by one….before the of 40.   I also have digestion issues and acid reflux disease (from all my purging, my tummy ph is all messed up) and a horrid gag reflex.   She too talks on her issues (which the media never covers for bulimics, or if they do it’s an aside, cause we aren’t SKINNY so its ok) 

“I do have a LOT of dental issues. I was a kid who never had cavities, always had white teeth, and I now struggle with cavities, gum damage, etc. I also have a lot of digestive problems. Since I abused laxatives, I have a hard time processing foods. I also restricted and threw up so much food that I have acid reflux, and issues with eating certain types of foods.” 

They don’t tell you that you can never enjoy orange juice (bottled sunshine) again without pain.  Or red sauce (at least for me). 

Kendra also talks on how people can help loved ones with an ed.   Like with alcoholism, its really hard to help someone stop when they don’t WANT to stop.   You have to have that Aha! moment.  It’s important to remember, folks may NOT want help.  “Also – this disorder lies:  Often while you think a loved one may need help, the person struggling will not and sometimes cannot see this. Try not to lash out with frustration, and understand that it is a very complicated disorder, and it is normal for the person struggling to not want help, be unwilling to stop behaviors and may get very angry at any suggestion of help.”

It’s people like her that give me the courage to take it one day at a time, step by step into recovery.  Sometimes all you can say is “I will try again tomorrow”


yet more proof that being fat is good for you. – quick hit

Ok I know we’ve seen this with other studies but who believes Canadians (just kidding) . once again fat people (especially the over 70 crowd)  live 10 years longer.   the study was carried out with 9,200 aussies over 10 years.  those with an overweight bmi lived 13% longer.    they also found that being sedentary, regardless of weight, doubled the risk of death for woman and raised it by 1/4 for men.  yea we know that is why HAES is good for you….and shows, once again diets don’t work.  ” According to the study authors, it may be time to reevaluate the system that determines who is overweight and obese.”



the scales can lie hidden fat /headdesk January 26, 2010


i refuse to join their website and pay to see the article but i will link what is available…..boy does THIS piss me off.  so now even the skinny are fat….like fat is a new term for unhealthly…..

“Can you be normal weight and fat at the same time? (wtf kinda questing is that……isnt the definition of fat mean “overweight”)

That’s the implication of a provocative recent report from the Mayo Clinic, which suggests that fat in your body can get you and your heart into trouble even if you don’t look fat and if the scale tells you you’re healthy.”

wow just wow…now skinnies have to worry about this mystery fat that will hurt your body…lets just market diet products to a bigger and bigger audience, a wider and wider range. not fat?  you might be deep down inside,  so diet!  buy our products…theres no money in us being healthy and happy, we have to hate ourselves, fear what we eat and pay for drugs, diet food and gym memberships (just 29.99 with a contract!)    /headdesk until I bleed.


Fat man circus on tyra

Filed under: diet,Fat Acceptance,heart disease,reality tv — erylin @ 4:43 pm

i know a LOT of discussion happens in the fatosphere about bbw clubs.  Frankly i love them myself…..a place where i can go and men love my curves, my thickness.   I know its more acceptible for men to be more out of shape,  but there have to be men out there that feel the “im fat and i cant get no love” stigma too.  

So i sat down and watched this segment on tyra about sexy, big men.  Here is my blow by blow, as i watched the segment:

   According to NYT and tyra, “pot bellies are the new washboard stomach.”   What i like (and what pisses me off at the same time) is there are hoots and hollers from the audience, like its ok, and normal when the subject is brought up.   I bet if it was about bbw club, there would be no cheers from the audience. 

They talked about sex being “more cushion for the pushing”   One guest speaks about throwing away their man’s diet pills, she didn’t want him to lose his belly.  They talk about how big men are safe to climb on, you know they can take it, and how riding a fat man doesn’t hurt as bad as a bony one.   A guest talks about how skinny guys that are attractive KNOW they are attractive. and act as such, but a fat guy can be cute and s still be a gentleman. 

And then the mockery starts….first one guest gives her man a raspberry…then tyra dresses the men up like Chippendales and has the guests feel them up.   ….trya im disappointed.    I KNOW she is part of the diet obsessed world, but i like her as a person and usually she’s kind of sensitive to things (im reminded of an episode where she shows the prejudices of people and included fat as one of them.)   But with this….great, thanks…once again the men are just fat clowns.   God that gets old.  Men can be fat and sexy and not have it be silly or a joke.   (OMFG she just said who wants to smell it…i think i threw up in my mouth a little) 

oh great thats not enough….now they roll out the OMG fat is unhealthy guest…including a lady that has to be a size 20 or so saying she should be the only fat one in  a relationship, and her being fat is “natural”  (its natural for all of us thanks.)  great thanks for nothing tyra…one guest even said “it’s not healthy, its greasy” about the pot belly.  Tyra makes the new “fat hating” guests get in bed with a guy with a pot belly and rub him in a sexual manner (ew, wrong on SOOOO many levels) 

I really wish we could all just be people…  we all have SOMETHING…we are all either fat or skinny, tall or short, red, white, black, asian what have you.  Every time there is a show like this one, or a “I love asian men” show it just reminds folks of our otherness, how we  are different.    Why is it ok for men to be fat, sexy even (even if in a silly way, look at Ron Jeremy, he is far from fit or svelte and is one of the top porn stars of all time) while women can’t be or they are a fetish?   Men of my BMI date all the time, and the women that date them are not just fatties, they are all sizes….but if a woman of size dates a skinny guy, he is automatically a fat fetishist, labeled “other” (because fetishes are just not “normal” sexual behaviors am I right?) and discounted.